It’s time to Start

Wow, it has taken me way too long to get to this. I wish I could explain the journey that I have been on this past year. I find it almost impossible to organize my thoughts about what a change I have gone through.

Those of you who know me and have experienced this journey so far with me know that I have been… absent. They say that leadership is a lonely place. That is true. I have had to walk this path solo. I have had to separate myself from everyone around me in the most uncomfortable way. But this was necessary to really find me.

Maybe that’s the easiest way to put my thoughts about it together.

I have spent the last year meeting a new woman. A woman who loves Jesus. A woman who never thought that she was good enough. A woman who had so much influence and power and had no clue.

This woman had a rough start in life. She had all the drive and motivation in the world and had no clue what to do with it all. She is fierce, intense, driven, and strong. She is also loving, loyal, and humble when it counts. This woman stands up for those who need defending and can’t tolerate injustice. She wants to get things done yesterday. Her mind is wild and races everywhere all the time. She is constantly correcting herself and introspecting. She wants to do her best and sometimes doubts her abilities but is capable of anything. This woman is me.

There is so much that I want to say and sometimes I get overwhelmed, and I will think that I need more time to fully analyze the plan of action. Then I will ponder on it longer and start to do something else. After 7-10 business days I will realize the one thing I forgot to do… start.

Action can’t take place without the start. Funny that the start feels like the hardest part. It’s really not the hardest part but I will always convince myself that I am not ready to start. Well, after God presented me with overwhelming evidence (that I did not need – I just thought I did) He has me convinced that I am ready. So, this is my start. Thank God for His grace. Thank God that He has never given up on me. Even in all of my kicking and screaming, He has shown me overwhelming grace. I pray that I can learn to be just a tiny bit as gracious as He is.

God has shown me how awesome HE is. And along with that – how awesome He made me. I believe now more than ever that it is impossible to please God without understanding who He says I am. Here’s the thing. The creator of the entire universe handmade me. What is the best thing about handmade gifts? Is it the perfection? Nope. It’s the imperfection that always made them awesome.

There are imperfections that I have that I am working on.. and some that I am rockin as a new style until God says otherwise. Each battle I face I know that He will show up and guide my steps through it. I am confident in this – God will never give up on me. Even when the world does, and people do, and I give up on myself. God remains. He stays. He will see me through every single dark season and His way is always the best path. He will use opportunities to strengthen and encourage me. He has put gifts in me that I have carried my whole life and never knew existed. What an adventure it has been getting to know the intricacies of Megan Henderson. I pray that you follow God on the journey of getting to know how cool you are. I am not kidding when I say that it will blow your mind.

My favorite thing is through this – I have learned so much about the awesomeness of God. He is really a force. I stand in awe of Him every single day. Along with that – He has shown me how awesome He made everyone around me. Every single person that I meet has some of God’s awesomeness that I had never seen before!

When we unite – we get a glimmer of God’s true image. I’m not sure if you have ever been in a situation where you have seen the unity of God’s Children and heard the thunder of His heartbeat, but I pray that you experience it.

The word that has been swirling around in my head this year is EPIC.

Guys, God is Epic. He is on the move right now and I implore you to not miss the boat. Find a church, read your bible, and pray. Think about your thoughts, your belief system, and your life. Think about the path that you are on and if it is bringing you to hope. Ask someone about Jesus. Ask me if you have no one to ask! I will absolutely tell you everything and anything about Him that I know. I love to talk, and I have a lot to say – so be ready!

I have spent way too long listening to satan telling me to stop – to shut up – to sit down and be quiet. I believed him when he said no one wanted to hear what I had to say. I believed him when he said that I wasn’t good enough that I was a loser and that I would never do anything with my life. I believed him when he said that no one loved me and that I was nothing. I legit believed that crap.

I would never believe that for someone. Like if you told me that right now that you think you are nothing. I would be the first one with 87 million reasons why there is no possibility that something like that could ever possibly even remotely be true. Yet – for me, I believed it.

And here is the Jesus part. Jesus came alongside me when I was at my worst and had no clue I was depleted and defeated and said, “Megan, you are everything. I came here and gave up my life for you to have a way because I can’t imagine heaven without you in it. Humans are the reason that I stepped off my throne and came down here to kick satan off his little soapbox. Humans are the reason that I stayed nailed to a cross for 3 days to show them what love is. You are the reason.” Now – it has taken me almost 10 years to get to this place with Jesus but today, I believe it.

I believe in the future and the hope of Jesus. I believe that His sacrifice is what has earned grace for me. I believe in the Kingdom of God. I believe that He has created me for a purpose. I believe that He led me down this path so I can turn around and share my story with the next woman who needs some hope.

I’m not sure what you are believing today or whose voice you are listening to – but the one thing that I can tell you is that when you stop to pay attention to that voice, you may not like what you hear. There is hope, hope in a future of brighter days. We spend so much of our life spinning our wheels waiting on a change when it starts within. I double-dog dare you to begin the adventure of getting to know the real you. Make sure to bring a flashlight, the armor God gave you, and some band-aids, and enjoy the ride.